JS, I know you must be exhausted. You've been going pretty steady for several months now. Some time off would do you good.
I was thinking the same things as Ellie when I read your post. You should go out too, even if it's alone. Act like you have a life without her. Knowing the way she has reacted at other things you've done....I think she'll take notice.
However, she may also get very mean. I've noticed that she tends to get that way when backed into a corner. Regardless, this is your life too, and you may as well live it the best you can.
Any chance you can get some rest while on your trip next week, maybe even extend it a day and do something for you?
During some of my hardest times, when my PMA was the lowest, it was generally a time when I was also tired. Once I got some rest, the PMA lifted off!
Maybe if you are refreshed when you come back home, you'll be able to muster some more patience and energy...giving her some time to work through things.
One more thing.... How are those goals coming?
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