The feeling better part comes and goes. I haven't really found an effective way to stabilize it. I usually get up in a good mood, but once a week or so, it gets to me and the PMA takes a dive.
Things are just so weird at the house. I wake up Monday morning and make coffee. W is mad at something...or everything, so she makes a point of not drinking the cup I gave her. Tuesday, I decided not to make the effort and that afternoon she says "you didn't make coffee this morning?"
Tuesday night we went to YS's game and I thought we had a good time. It was a long drive, had some pleasant conversation. I make coffee Wednesday morning and everything seems to be going OK. She tells me she has a doctor's appointment right after work and I ask her if she wants to go to dinner after that. Her response is "We'll see what time I get done" (She rarely commits to plans with me).
So what happens? She doesn't come home until 10pm. Says she went for a drive. Says she's been thinking about things...Whatever that means. All I know is that she didn't answer her cell phone and she looks like she's been crying. As usual, she doesn't want to talk about it.
Today she tells me she's going to go to Bingo with her friends. When I didn't act like that's the greatest news in the world, she asks me what's wrong. Now... if I answer that, she doesn't want to talk about it. If I don't answer, she gets mad.
Today, I just found out I need to go out of town next week, so another week will go by without talking or doing anything except going through the motions.
It's days like these that make me wonder if this was such a good idea. I may just be postponing the inevitable.
