Well they are facetiming on their Itouch so it isn't like he can see me or me him anyway. I think at first I didn't want to hear his voice but then I sort of felt like an evasdropper you know?? They need to find their own relationship without my intervention. H does call the boys every day and at first I tried to talk to him or give the boys things to share with him. Tell Dad about blah blah blah. I have really stepped back and I don't think its a negative. They now have a relationship and memories with H that I am not a part of anymore. That is the way H wants it.
Now when I do talk to him I am always positive and happy and full of stuff we are doing fun. So I don't know if that is right or wrong but it feels the best for me right now. I am putting my feelings first well after the kids but before H!
He only wants to talk to me when he needs something anyway. Let him figure it out on his own. Now if he wants to talk about the kids I will tell him whatever but I am done being the one to tell him what is going on with them. He made his choice so he has to live with it.
