Today is a bad day. Things seem to be moving backwards again. On the uphill of the rollercoaster. H out all night Thursday. I tried but couldn't hold back from arguing. H ANGRY says he tired of being accused n w his friend having. Few beers...except he came in at 5am...whatever...no all night bars by our house. Fri H met me for lunch. Nice all day. Called me bc he looking at furniture for his theater room he making. Forget that the plan is he wants to leave. Then Fri took S to soccer n typical H leaves as soon as we gone. Get text from him at 7:10 Am apologizing saying he passed out last night n was on his way home. No mention of where he was or who he is with. Then he doesn't come home for three more hrs. Comes in and immediately asks if he can take my car bc he knows i need tires n he wants to get them for me. I assume this is to avoid the where have u been all night argument. What H dies not know is im done arguing. Im not saying anything. I can't do it anymore. He takes my car then comes home all sweet n nice. Tells me how he upgraded my tires etc. Before i could get up from my seat he was gone again no explanation. Found a garbage bag from his car w movie stub tickets in it crumbled from Jan. For an adult n child. I looked up movie..horror flick. I know my kids definitely hate that n didnt go. Plus only one kids ticket n he would take my boys together. So.its all coming together he still w same OW. She has son same age as mine. He denies it but there is too much evidence pointing in that direction. He got in car accident in her area..the receipts from the supermarket by her house...etc. trying to keep calm n not react. Not going to say anything. I know this really isn't healthy n gone on too long. He can't have his family...my friendship n a secret life w an OW on the side. Its so overwhelming trying to make a plan to move forward. I don't think this is good for us. My H has no family i still can't figure out why u he would do this to us when he has no one else. I can only assume he is so unhappy he means it when he says he wants to leave.
