put yourself out of the misery or keep pushing on.

[Shiss]

Thanks. I'm keeping tabs on your post for help and encouragement. I'm praying for both of us even though the hole seems to get darker. I've been dark, no contact since Thursday and it is better since I don't have to deal with him mentioning the D, my anxiety used to sky rocket when I saw his name on my phone, easier to detach that way. I'm going to avoid face to face for awhile. Thanks for your advice and I'm here if you need anything.