One month update, there hasn't been much progress with H. He's back to texting at night (to kill his battery) and not talking about what's going on.
He's keeps telling me how much he hates his folks and living here. I just listen and tell him I understand. There's really not much that can be done since the bulk of our earnings are going towards bills. I'm getting tired of hearing him talking about hating everything and I'm trying not to let it bring me down.
The Saturday before Easter, I drove down and picked up my 15mo. old niece from my sister's house. She and her H were happy that I was willing to take her D to our parents a day early so that they could have the night off. H was upset because he didn't want me to take her. (Fear that we would get in an accident on the way and my sis would sue us.) He actually said it was the last straw. That night and into Sunday morning, he was going on about enjoying not having me in bed with him and wanting me to not come back. It put me off but I didn't fight back, I just mentioned that texting about it on Easter Sunday was neither the right time or place to be talking about it and that we'd chat when I got home. Needless to say, the talk hasn't happened.
H has been sick and so he hasn't been in a great mood. I've been letting him have his space but also asking how he slept and how his day at work went. I don't get much of an answer. It feels as if he's slipping farther back into not wanting to be together.
This past week, I've been trying to initiate intimacy but back off when he mentions not being in the mood. (Previous complaint was that I didn't initiate enough) This morning, he brushed up against me in the bathroom and I took it as a signal that he was interested. I pursued and we were intimate.
A few hours later, he mentions that he wants that to be the last time until we hash everything out. OK, fine. But how can we hash things out if he doesn't bring up the subject or avoids talking with me all together?
In other news, my GAL is going well. I've completed my first 9-week acting class and enjoyed it. The owner offered me another 9-week course for free. (She knows that I can't afford another session.) I'm so excited because I had fun and she things I'm doing well enough to pay for my next course.
That's about it.
Any advice on my sitch w/H would help.
Thanks and have a good weekend. Tessa
Me39 H35 M8 T14 Early 5/12 H FB post re: his love for me. End 5/12 H done trying, writes "Dear John" letter 6/12 Wants D, calls ATTY, no file 1/13 Loves me, wants to try, moves home 3/13 Changes mind
