Divorced-not done-But wondering ?

[JJAC2005]

I was just blessed with a surprised chance encounter with my 12 year old step son. (yesterday)
He was playing with a friend at the corner of a street by a park near the place I was dog sitting for a friend of mine...not to far from our old home. I was driving down this street and as I approached I recognized that it was him and he recognized it was me, and I had to stop and say hello....It had been 6 months since we had seen each other. As I got out of my car, he was running across the street to greet me, huge hugs...huge smiles...I miss you, love you so much dad, I think about you all the time we both exchanged the exact same sentiments about how much we missed each other.
I was excited and nervous about seeing him in person like this, as I know his mother had set up blocks to prevent him from contacting me.
Besides the fact that this was a great moment of joy and happiness for both of us in just a brief (way too Brief) 10 min reunion....I cam away from it ecstatic! And as it turns out for more that a couple of reasons.
The obvious was that I found out that both him and his sister still miss me, and think about and talk about me all the time, and had often asked if they could still see me. (they still love me!)
Secondly I found out that he is an amazingly insightful young m man for 12, as he explained why mom had told him he couldn't see me during that time frame, as mom needed her space(for what, I don't really know but can guess). But he still has my number and will wait till he has the ok to call me...
He also told me that mom had been sad and depressed at times, and when I asked him what about he said she missed me. (proof that WAW do have feelings)
I was curious as to that response of his observation because I have know her to be in a relationship with another guy just less than 2 months from her ending our contact. And when I inquired about his friend he told me that it was the son of moms new boy friend, and that the boy friend, his daughter and son had come to town to spend spring break with them.
WOW, I thought, that was fast....probably way too fast, but reminded myself that was her choice to make and that's her life, and she's in charge of that. But definite proof to me that she is in a full blown rebound relationship that gave her no time to reflect, but only helped her to block out her pain.

I had a great moment yesterday and don't want to analyses it to death here, but I believe that I can take away some pretty positive signs and know with out a doubt now that I am still thought of fondly, missed deeply and still loved in various ways by what was my family.
Keeping hope alive....without expectations...can get trying to us all! And all we want is a sign that its worth it!
Learning patience, keeping my distance, until otherwise invited for change and sticking to making myself even better is the best reward of all.
That in itself is worth it...no matter what happens!