Okay Turtle, your kids are your crutches, I did the same. They also are great excuses, I did the same. Of course mine are older, so free time is a lot easier for me.
This has nothing to do with your H or your kids and everything to do with you, you know that. Unfortunately you guys are all a family and it is hard to separate all those feelings. When your worth is tied up in your kids and husband and your husband is gone and all that are left are the kids and then he wants part of that too, your reaction is normal.
I know we are supposed to have our own self worth, and most days we do, I feel it here. But some days we are just stunned by the enormity of the situation and the fact that we have been left behind when it was supposed to be for always. I get this and I so understand.
You are working through your emotions and I see it as they are laid out and you go forward. I see growth and movement and acceptance bit by bit. The acceptance that you have your own value and own worth and are finding this out. That there is more...more to you, more to your relationships and more in store.
Keep moving yourself forward, look at your emotions, ask why, question your motives.
Also question whether you are meeting Tori and I in Boston on the 13th!!!
