LF, it truly svks, we all know that. But even you realize you cannot control your W. When are you going to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move forward? <insert virtual face slap here!>
This doesn't mean you have to give up all hope, or file for D.
You have a lot of good things in your life, people who love you even.
How long are you going to allow your W to steal away your happiness? Life is too short to wallow it away in self pity.
You know the funny thing is I was thinking this all day long. God I just want to be happy again. Thank you for the slap to the face. But i think sometimes I need s 2 by 4 upside my head.lol
Even my BD coach said something along the same line. i lost track of time this past session and only had 30 min. but it was just to continue to be there for my stepdaughter no matter what WAW says. and she did tell me that we are sure when WAW does find out about me being there for step daughter she is going to be upset. just based on the past. we worked on the reply if and or when she says something . But hey i just need to say here that I am a very loving caring forgiving person. I would never let a child just not have a place to go. I have always been that way. a giving person. So I guess what I need to do is to Give to myself. That is the hardest thing.
I was just talking to my bro and just told him that i just wish WAW and I could just talk. now i say this to get it out of my head but the fealing is still there.
On top of all this I have to try to find a place to live soon. ...
anyway i am just all over the place in my head but i will pull it together. God is on my side. and the fact that i feel like i ned to keep doing something is hard. But i have looked at it this way by me not doing anything to my WAW is really doing something. make sense
