Here we go loopty loo. Here we go loopty li.

[Raine]

It's so much harder to deal with when the kids are getting hurt by it. It's spring break and H has spent 2 hrs with them this entire time. So last night S called H to see if he would come and play with him. No answer. Which is weird. So I look at where he is and check ow4 FB page and she made a public post about her bday dinner date. He never returned S's voicemail either. Zero contact. But karma made my night as ow4 later posted that her car got hit twice in a parking lot. You just cant make this stuff up. The sad thing is I doubt she has any clue about what is really going on. I do feel bad for this one. She is very young and I'm sure he has told her a slew of lies. I have no doubt she believes he is just waiting on the finalization of divorce and probably doesn't know I'm pregnant. The lies could be much worse than that even.

I'm pretty much ready for this new little guy to arrive. H and I have not talked about anything since sept to do with the baby. He said some very horrible things back near bomb drop, which I know were all about button pushing. I have not said anything since. I know that he knows I want him there and he will be. He also knows he'll have to have the other kids while I'm in the hospital. He has not had them for more than a few hours at a time and never overnight since S. Again, never said. We haven't talked about names since beginning of pregnancy either. I think I'm set on one. This has just got to be one of the weirdest setups for a new arrival ever.