[in_it]

Journal:
Today has been less stressful than yesterday. H & I have had decent conversation. Continuing to GAL & working on learning to properly detach. It's hard. Really, really hard.

My parents are coming to town for the weekend. These days are always hard. I always get stressed out the days leading up to a visit wondering how H will act. I like to hope that he will see these times with family as warming & not want to lose that. I need to get better at shutting these feelings down & assume that regardless of our time together it won't change his feelings. My mom & H are very close. Since BD I've seen him pull back a bit.

H mentioned almost nonchalantly that he is working on doing the right thing. I asked him what he meant by the right thing & he said the right thing for him. What I really wanted to say next is…how about the right thing for your daughters? Don't they deserve a chance? But I bit my tongue.