Time, Space and Proof

[moth76]

Thinking a lot about the whole detachment process lately. Reading other people's threads and reflecting on my progress (and sometimes lack thereof). I am feeling a sort of struggle amidst all this. I know that my R needs the distance but while a part ofme still loves my W, it sometimes seems like I love the idea of my W not so much the actual person. At least not the person she is right now. Filled with bitter anger and spite, and often turning that toward me. I know that I have a huge responsibility for where my life and M is. But some days I feel more like it is drifting away rather than detaching lovingly. How do you combat the ambivalence of constant pain and negligence from your spouse? I am committed to my M but want some kind of human contact that isn't just from my parents or male friends.