I'd think it means he's still alive in there somewhere and wanting to communicate with you- WANTING you to UNDERSTAND, wanting you to not be feeling like the cause of anything- wanting you to KNOW how highly he thinks of you- wanting you to be OKAY somehow despite his sinking into his own particular abyss.
Nero, I have never looked at it like that but I guess there is something to what you say. Thanks for your prospective and never feel the need to sugar coat anything you say, I'm not a defensive person, I want responses, even ones I may not want to hear. You are right, he makes a very big effort to make sure I understand I am doing nothing wrong, how it is all him!
I'm not sick of him saying it, as I am a girl who needs reassurance, but I am sick of him still on this wrong path, and knowing very well that he is...while doing nothing to change it.
This is not a life I want for myself anymore, he needs to go be a POS somewhere away from me, he offers me nothing in a M other than support and has nothing left of who he was to give this family. That's what I'm sick of most...his need to be a "not a good guy because it got me know where" somewhere away from me now.
It would be best for both of us as individuals to live alone. It will help him to face the sitch and the consequences of his actions.
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There is a school of thought that says that this is the best thing they can do, as it forces the reality of their choice on them
I really believe this, being home is not giving him something to work toward as far as family, he takes it all for granted.
How to execute this seems to be the million dollar question! Financially, it's seems impossible! But, something has to change...I am taking it day by day.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
