Bea, I understand how you feel. Your guard is up whenever he contacts you because you don't know what he wants or which personality you will be speaking with.
I'm sorry his contacting you is bothering you just a bit. If you don't feel comfortable talking to him, advise him to text you...better yet...allow the call to go to voice mail. I do think that he's waking up and wants to reconnect w/you, but he just doesn't know how to go about it.
He's not going to go away until you firmly tell him that you don't want him contacting you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
