just wanted to drop a note to say earlier in this thread you hoped that others reading this could learn something. Well I am reading and I am - a lot about your sitch is similar in mine - in particular W living together and getting on very well, which is confusing especially when she is insistent that she wants D.
Sounds like you are doing well so keep it up, and keep posting!
Me: 38 W: 35 M: 9Yrs T: 15Yrs S8 D5 BD: Feb 13 Still Living Together
I feel like I'm in thick forest, I'm slowly drawing a map of the way out, but not sure yet which side of the forest I will emerge.