6 months check-in. I'm not sure these messages even belong on this forum anymore since I don't think there is any chance of reconciliation but it seems important to follow through and paint a complete picture of what happened.
I dated someone for about 6 weeks and it was nice while it lasted but she inexplicably called things off despite telling me that she really, really likes me. It was a brief moment of deja vu, but I'm moving on. That was the same weekend that I was going through withdrawal from anti-depressants (under doctor supervision of course). I'm feeling better off now that I've fully adjusted to being off of them. I continue to go to individual therapy bi-weekly. Not sure how much it is helping at this point, but I'm going to stick with it.
I have no contact with my XW (still no papers filed but it is pretty clear that there is no going back) aside from a text message when she's dropped off or picked up the dog on weekends. I honestly wish there wasn't that either but neither of us are going to be willing to give up the dog. You'd think given the fact that the OM has a dog, she wouldn't be so stuck on taking mine but she's obsessed for some reason. I'll never really understand her insanity - I've come to accept that.
Next month I'll be hauling all of her stuff out of the attic and leaving it in the garage for her to pick up. Hopefully she's not stupid enough to bring the OM with her - that would go badly for both of us I think.
I don't feel any real desire to pursue making a D official. How long do people wait to do that? I don't think I feel that way because I hope for reconciliation but rather I just don't want to be exposed to her insanity. If I can just forget about her entirely, it makes navigating my life much easier.
Looking forward to starting over at this point. Will probably try to sell my house and leave the area in the next year or two. Seems like MLC spouses should have to finance the relocation of the LBS... if only the world were that just. ____________________________ "In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer." -- Albert Camus
Me:39 WAW:38 M:9 T:19, No Kids EA/PA with co-worker:9/24, ILYBINILWY, S:9/25 EA/PA ongoing, MC 9/30-1/10 No contact 1/10 - present
