Still treading water

[Grizz]

Thanks wfm, chris and Spartan.
Just got back from the Reds game. Great game! Reds win 5-4 in bottom of ninth.
Went with a buddy and had a great time.

Okay Spartan, you actually made me laugh out loud with the Nancy comment.

Why am I needy with my W? I don't know. Maybe I don't need her. I will survive without her. The sun will come up tomorrow if she is not here. It just might not shine as bright. So, I don't need her to survive but maybe I need her to make my life better. Life is better with a partner. Life expectancy is even longer if you have a spouse. But WANT is probably a better word.

I don't act needy around her. I probably did right after BD, but no longer.

Am I needy in other parts of my life? Now you are going to make me think. I actually wouldn't consider myself needy. I am definitely not a "mommas boy". I am fine doing things on my own (but I do prefer company). But the flip side is that i do have trouble if someone doesn't like me. Some people don't care if others like them but it bothers me if they don't. It always has. I am a people person.

I am also very competitive. I hate to lose. Maybe that plays a role in not dealing well when someone is unfriendly to me. I guess it feels like i lost at something.

I am glad that she is not a b!tch towards me. But it is so hard to detach when we are getting along. I guess that is where the expectations come in.