UW, Sharing your experiences, thoughts, and feelings is truly inspirational.

To know that it is possible to rise above all the hurt and devastation gives me hope.

And it's not like the hope that H and I will reconcile - that's different.

It's the hope that I'm going to be at peace with all of this someday.

You say when you see your XH now, he is a shell of a man. I remember that during the bomb, one of the things my H yelled at me was "I feel like a shell of a person!" Those were his exact words.

I also remember during the bargaining stage of my journey, I would pray and beg to God for H's fog to lift, for us to be a couple and a family again.

Now I pray that he makes it through no matter what, whether he and I are together or not. I don't want him to spend the rest of his life in emotional hell. I love him enough to want him to find happiness again.

I just wish it wasn't at the expense of our M and our family.

You have been through so much, endured so much - I am sorry for all that your x did to you and your son.

Glad you're here smile

Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me

~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."