I am very new here. But I got some very usefully suggestions. You seem like a strong person. I also was, then I forgot who I was for a while. I was a complete mess, hit the rock bottom. I was one of the worst cases I believe in this site.
Detaching helped me. It was extremely hard in the beginning. I used some modern pharma prescribed by my doctor. They helped me to control my urges to push, nag, question, ask about where he is in this relationship. Now I don't need meds anymore. I built habit. It is still hard, but easier to apply the rules.
I also want to keep my family together, and avoid divorce. I miss my husband, I know that the person whom I am dealing with now is not him. Once you accept that, it is easier. I hope and you hope that they will return back to their better selves.


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Me: 42 Him: 42
M: 15 years T: 16
S10, D4
H changing since Sept 2011, MLC very likely
World exploded 9 Dec 2012