I'm running out of reasons to even need him in my life at all! I picture myself a widow ( I know extreme, but not unusual) and I see a burden lifted, a full life ahead of me without the burned of the past, I see possibilities. Well ok, he's not going to meet his maker any time soon, so I have picture the reality of my life moving forward breaking away from him more and more. What does that look like to me....it looks hopeful, new, and a little exciting!
on a good day i feel the same- slight excitement and optimism. on a tired day- i wonder if this dope has ruined the best thing either of us is ever likely to experience in way of a r - no kidding.....
oh well- can't undo what is done can you? i am truly "open" to the universe and whatever comes next- no even opinion about what it might be- just me here - awaiting expectently the next step in my journey and "ready" for whatever presents itself. i'm curious what i'll do next - i'll say for me, i am soooo not locked into anything in life- i honestly think i might do anything- wide open spaces - my future... -
