You were challenged to not speak about your H for 3 days and I challenged you to a week. You last 16 hours.
You don't understand DB because you can't even make it through a few chapters. If you did you wouldn't be mentioning your H. You would be focusing on fixing yourself. Your draining to me which means your draining to him.
Take 100000000000000000000000000000000000% focus OFF your H in ALL aspects of your life. Go live life