MLC?

[Mad about Love]

Update:
We are in a very strange place. I really do not know what to make out of it.

I am detached, really. Hurt, but functioning. When I pulled myself away completely, ignored him, only responded as needed his reaction was very strong. He got furious within a day. He yelled at me for no logical reason, almost he was trying to create an excuse to be mean to mean to me. I stood my ground. Did not loose control. That was 3/22.

Last week I was home for spring break. I spend some nice time with the kids. We stayed local. Lots of play dates and some skiing. We continued keeping minimal contact. it seemed like he wanted to keep communication lines open. But I exercised extreme caution. Then came evening of 3/30. I was already agitated due to some other issues. So I stayed away most of the day. When I came he had done barbecue and we had a very close friend (who knows about the situation) with her kids. They were waiting for me. She describes our situation as a circus... We ate, had a little too much to drink (I have been avoiding alcohol for longest time). I was still relaxed, and not looking for any confrontation. But as soon as our friend left he started to get very argumentative. I remained calm, he kept on going and going. Then I snapped. I lost all control. He panicked, and tried to help. The rest is blurry but he was about to call the hospital when I started to calm down. I don't remember the rest, except that he apologized a whole lot, first since for long time.

We both have very busy lives. Still we have a very organized life like never before, everything works like a clock. Everyone has tasks that he/she does automatically. Very peaceful... No personal contact. After kids go to bed he sits on our usual sofa, seeming to wait for me. I sit, he asks if I want to watch anything, which I leave it up to him, he usually picks something we both like. Last night he was watching a soccer game, which I would not be interested in, he switched to NBA when I walked in, my favorite. I moved to bed rather quickly, he spent the night on the sofa. Was he hurt? Did he want me to stay with him and watch the NBA game? I had done the same last weekend - sleeping on the sofa, despite him asking me to go back to bed.

He stays around me, he watches me. He called me "darling" once, by mistake or not? He started calling my phone to let us know that he is on his way. I almost think that his reactions are improvements for our marriage. He may be getting closer to me, see if we can rebuilt our marriage, or trying to build a civilized relationship for the sake of the kids, especially for after divorce. I don't know, and I cannot ask since I am not ready to hear the answer and also I don't believe he has the answer.

By no means I am bringing my hopes up. I am still very very sad, and scared. I am just observing.
He is a very smart person, and I don't know what kind of games he may be in to it...