Lost her love or MLC?

[Alias71]

I think that you are right, AS. The next day I asked her what she meant and she said that she loved me as I was the father of her children.

She is completely fixated on the OM. According to her she has never felt this way before and he's like a drug to her (I couldn't resist saying that drugs aren't good for you! Slap hand!). It hurts a little now that she said that but she's so messed up I shouldn't take it personally.

I suppose I should be grateful that we are under the same roof (although the tension can be unbearable at times), that she doesn't want a divorce and is inconsistent about separation. I can't help thinking that I'm a doormat(e?) but, I suppose, until I get my act together (I'm frustrated at my inability to do so) I can't really hope for anything else.

I really admire your attitude. Your situation isn't what you want it to be but you've moved forward so admirably. I aspire to have your fantastic attitude and helpfulness. Thank you so much for your continued help.