I'm trying real hard to be the Shepard.

[Mtnman]

I miss my family today. Our anniversary is in a week and I would normally be making plans by now. Sadly, I won't be celebrating this year.

I still feel like I'm in a dream. We were never going to have to go through this. We were the envy of all others. Our S's wouldn't know what separation and divorce involved.

I still see/hear positive signs, but there's always a negative to balance it out. I'm only able to detach by being angry at my W. I have to be angry at my W in order to try to keep her. That's just not right.