Hey! I'm doing pretty good. I'm a little nervous. In a few hours I will be meeting my x for tea. I haven't seen her since August when we signed our D papers. I have no idea why she wants to see me.. so managing my expectations is a challenge. I actually opened up another thread on newcomers just to keep my thoughts separate.
I have a movie date with my friend on Friday. We still continue to text each other every other day. It was really awesome of her to text me on Easter... She is jewish and I am pretty active in my church. Usually that's a red flag for most. Christian Lesbians are like fairies and trolls... people don't believe they exist.
I find it difficult to keep the excitement in.... but I did decide that she will either like me for me or she won't. The past 2 years of my life would be moot if I didn't at least learn from my mistakes.
That means accepting me in all my mushy, loving, glory. That means except me in my weirdness.
I'm stepping boldly yet softly and with purpose.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
