Oh my gosh, I am such a strong, powerful, content, spiritual woman. Yes, I am hurt and angry at H. That's why I am here to work thru these poisoness feelings. Since H left, I have gone back to school so prepare myself for now getting a job. It has been a good and positive experience.
My role in my marriage following apart...I enabled him. I kept everything pleasant for him and let the inner resentments build to where I responded to him with sarcasm about his job. I didn't like his job situation which was constant dinners out work "parties" ballgames, Epcot,concerts...Meanwhile, I am home doing the kids. My story is not a new one. He decided he liked that lifestyle of independance over having the day in day out stress of family life and raising children. I like my job. I like my family . I am not looking for something else. Still have to deal with the sadness of his choosing something else over his family.
Of course I ask myself why should I want him back? Maybe that is what I am here for to figure that out. to vent. To get this negativity out.
I know my positives. I know I will ultimately be fine because I have so much in my life to be thankful for. I know my blessings.


M48 H50
M21 T26
S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old
PA confirmed 7/2012
H separates 9/2012
H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY
OW still in picture. h filed 10/13