Yeah, I know EXACTLY how you feel as I feel equally lost and am desperately trying to feel may way forward in the area of physcial communication -- an area I feel equally clueless about!
This has been the hardest damn thing I've ever done because every action I need to take runs completely contrary to what *I* feel and know as truth.
Again, your enormous struggle, frustration, helplessness, et al., with expressing your emotions is equal to what I feel in learning how to express myself in a physical way.
So come on in, you can wade through the sh!t with me... we can struggle together -- even if it isn't over the EXACT same thing, we both want the same outcome -- to improve our marriages.