I know, me too. But it's a feeling and feelings pass. You are not your feelings.

Go to AlAnon, try 6 different meetings. Have no preconceived notions about what it will be or who will be there. Beginner's mind.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss