AS is right. you're making excuses for everything you do. you're mindreading, pursuing, ignoring advice from people who have been here much longer than you have.
you must think you're so much smarter than we are and than your H is. no wonder he's afraid you'll go back to the "old ways"; you've never left them. you're only showing him that your main concern is getting what YOU want. that's what you're showing us, too.
do you really want help? do you think we're all wrong and/or mistaken about your sitch because it's so different from what we've been through?
time to drop the arrogance and start to practice some humility, with your friends here and with your H. time for you to surrender.
M:63 H:53 S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23 M:15 T:16
Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways." H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12 12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing