Recently Separated and Need Help

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I don't know if we really ever completely worked through the PA. We talked about it for a short period of time, but then he wouldn't want to talk about it. I kept getting responses like "I don't know what you're talking about"

I think it happened because after the loss of our first son, we put so much time and energy into our second son. We really lost track of each other. I can say that now, but I didn't realize it until about 6 months ago.

In order to ensure that it didn't happen again, we started commuting to work together. He would email me when he got to work and when he was leaving.

I don't know if I ever really truly forgave him. I thought I had, but looking back, I'm not so sure.

As for forgiving himself, I don't really know. We never really talked about it.

He claims that there is not an OW. However, I have my suspicions. I can't decide if that's because I never really forgave his previous PA or if his actions lead me to believe there's an OW