Thanks Val and E.

I keep thinking about that we are a kick a@@ family!! The 3 of us are great and I am soo not going to waste anymore of my time worrying about H and OW. Ok well I will try! baby steps

I am going to think of this like a business. He doesn't want to be in our business anymore. Fine go. I am just not going to talk to him anymore, not in a bad way like I am mad and not talking to him but just like I don't want to waste my energy on him. I am not letting him take my joy anymore.

When he calls I just give the phone to the boys and let them talk. We really don't have anything to talk about anymore. I will let the lawyers figure out the divorce details and since he is gone we really don't have to talk about parenting issues since to be honest he isn't really being much of a parent more like a uncle now. Soo unless he wants to talk to me I am done making the effort. Time to start focusing on me and my life instead of worrying about him and his.

Now I am sure I will have to come back and reread my words again but right nwo I am feeling very good. I need to stop thinking about the past and focus on the future. I have 2 wonderful, smart, handsome boys and that is all I am going to worry about.