we own a biz - pt 4

[makingmagic]

update: not sure how it happened, h kinda was stressed a little and i reached out, then it lead to r talk. It seems as though he is borderline about us getting back together.. he said "getting back together" several times during our convo. I said I missed him, and asked if he missed me too (bad, bad, I know). He is afraid of slipping back to our old ways. I used the term "auto pilot" and said that I would be alot more aware. Spoke about time apart made us appreciate. I got a few hugs in. Told him hugs are a start. He feels awkward, I can tell. Held back on the rest of my affections. He would not allow me to pigeon-hole him into a commitment of trying again, but was open to seeing what happens. I talked about hanging out, vacation (june/july) and fun stuff/laughter, he seemed to be open to this. He also wants to write a list of "non-negotiable things". He was pretty pumped about writing such a list. Not quite sure what he will put on it. He is adamant about me not moving home, as he feels then he will never get out of the house arrangement with his mom. I told him I miss home. He understood. He said he would want to live together again. Again, he would not commit and does not want to be held accountable. He says "who knows" alot. I validated often. He really wants more time to enjoy life, after our "busy season", and happiness, he said either together or apart. He admitted that we had a good rel'p, but doesnt want to forget the bad stuff either. He seems very on the fence, and unable to let me have an inch for fear I will hold him accoutable. I tried to assure him no promises and same for me.

Im trying to remember it all.

What do y'all think?

PATIENCE/TIME/DETACH....more DB'ing!!