i just read your letter and it made me blubber a bit. it's true isn't it- it just hurts (might forever) who the heck knows?
my h gets nice - very nice - sometimes. when he forgets i'm his "sworn enemy and source of everything bad in his life???". you are sooo right about not getting any kind of hope.
i feel for you- you're a good man to let the kids off the hook for your anguish. it's hard- it's decent tho and they'll benefit from it.
i don't have kids - have a few neices i'm close to - i endeavor to be honest (they're oldish a few and with the youngest (14) i keep it light and no-pain). they don't need to suffer thru our pain.
it's something positive we can do to help someone else i think.
God knows i can't seem to help myself in this mess.
