Not confused, still emotional, getting very angry

[BRNR]

I just couldn't let the comment go that they never come back home. I'm still hoping mine does.

I am sorry to imply this "never" and offend anyone, RH. I have hope for everyone here, and read a lot of the sitches and see how things change for the positive in a lot of them, one way or another. I guess I lack any hope for mine anymore. Maybe I am too hard on myself.

There is a lot that I have learned from everyone here. And pain and hurt is not something I want to cause or inflict on anyone. But it does seem that the pain and hurt and added frustration is where I seem to be stuck at in this whole process. I guess my own rabbit hole...