Just had a good conversation with my W on the phone. I could feel she was in a good vibe, she had just gone for a run and i had sent her a message with a pic of our S in his new soccer gear that I bought for him today. He looked so cute. His first soccer training is tomorrow...very excited.
ANyway, we talked about our boys and shared some observations about them which was great, the stuff i miss, those little everyday talks. It was so nice to hear her in a positive tone.
I asked her about her run and gave some positive vibes about how quickly she did it. I remember i used to do this when I lived at home, i realise now i wasnt short of encouragement. But I also wasnt short of critical comments towards her as well. Thats the stuff i regret and thats the stuff she remembers. It was so unnecessary, some of the things i said but I own that now and I am not hiding from that truth. I realise now that it wasnt about her, it was about me and the issues i was having with myself.
Hindsight....wonderful thing.

Anyway, it ended well and i will see her tomorrow for changeover. For now, i will be thankful for this good phone call and continue on my mission.

Me - 37
W - 37
M -5
T - 15

S=5
S=3

Seperated - 12/12
BD - 20/03/13
Still seperated - no R or M talk yet.