I am in a very strange spot. Stronger, yes. But with a very real urge to now just walk away. I recognize that I still love him and that I would be willing to work on things. But I also feel, eight months later, that I am no longer quite as willing to work on them alone.
Alone in this is how I feel. There has been no real progress since BD. as of two weeks ago he did not even want to see me and given that we are long distance that was just so telling to me. He did send a BDay card and gift but that felt more automatic than caring. We have not spoken in almost a week. I still do not trust that he is not back with GF. I really do not trust anything that he says.
I have been giving this quite a bit of thought and feel that it just may be time to say goodbye. I am sad that will mean the end but I cannot really figure out what I am holding onto anymore. I will not dive into this but I am tired of feeling used.
