I don't know if you notice how quickly your attitude changes towards him. One minute you're saying that you're a doormat and that he's dangling a carrot in front of you and that he only cares about biz, etc. Then the next you say how he cares for you and your D, is a good man, etc.
This is why you need to calm yourself.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.