Can I be "me" with H? Good question because I don't think I've been the real me for years.
I am experiencing some of this too. Seems I spent the last 20 years trying to be someone I'm not - someone I thought H wanted me to be. Since the bomb I've given that up but H now thinks "I" behave strangely. I think its because he isn't accustomed to seeing me "out of the box". But I do sometimes find myself wondering just who Mizj IS, because I haven't been her for so long.
Inch by inch I guess we'll figure it out.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.