I am feeling worried that my h is possibly keeping me baited to continue in our business."
Mindreading. You're getting paranoid again. Might be a result of the meds.
"What do I say to him? This is more pressure. And I can't stop stressing and losing sleep/weight over all this !!!"
You know how you do this? By detaching.
"But, how else can I look at this?"
By not being afraid. Keep business and personal separate. I know you're going to say "but I can't do that! etc. etc. etc." Bottom line is this. If you are afraid of losing money for yourself, tell your H about it. If he dismisses you, you tell him that 'no' it's your future and financial stability you are worried about that he can't dismiss it like that. You don't live with him so aren't obliged to listen to him. Keep it strictly business-like. It would be better if you had an exit plan and say that if you don't see a profit, then you will be doing xyz.
"Tell me what I would look/sound like if I was not hyper focused."
If you weren't hyper-focused, you wouldn't be spending 4 pages worth of posts on just one interaction with your H. You would start talking about the positives in your life more than the negatives.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.