When I take a deep look, I know I felt like I needed to just go file and start this because he knows how to string me along, eating the cake. And I worry with my preggo hormones that I will bite every once in awhile. So, I may be crazy posting for awhile for support.

My friend really hurt my feelings. I was saying MAYBE I wanted to, at some point, let the nurses husband know what she is doing. I said I would have liked to have had a heads up years ago. she said "Well, you've known about this for 5 months and done nothing, so why tell him anything." I felt really crappy about myself. That really, really hurt. Does my H still live with me, no. I have done plenty. She is pretty much like my mom believing I should punish him. I get it, she is really mad at him. But it just reinforces that little voice that says "what is wrong with you?! Why did you stand for this? What pathetic person gets cheated on so much?"

I know it's not true. And that is my focus now. Doing what is best for me. My kids. And my H isn't it.

M: 9 yrs
T: 13 yrs
H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months
Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs
Dbing 12/12
S 1/13
7/13 H moved back in basement.
8/13 #3 born
10/13 still cheating
10/13 He moves across country, I file for D