Well this am I have been thinking about just calling him and telling him we need to determine if this is a divorce or a separation...limbo land is killing me...I feel I am not a good mother, my anxiety is very high and I can not focus on anything else at this time...
Every bit of my being is telling me to just call him and say I love you, don't want a divorce but I also need to put my sanity ahead of my marriage right now...we need to determine one way or another...
Ahhh....have not done it yet....amd yes this is a pattern I guess I never knew how much my emotions take over...but look at any interaction I have had with H so far...they take over...no matter how I want it to go or what I try to picture the outcome being...my frustration, hurt, pain, saddness, resentment and anger take over...
