I'm struggling DBing today. Yesterday's gathering brought a lot of feelings back. This morning I woke up with my arm around my W. So I kept pursuing and I got rejected. Brought me back to square one. I really hate myself for doing that but I know I shouldn't beat myself and just move on.

High score in LL is PT followed by quality time. I still miss the old her. My hurt armor got cracked today I have to fix it. Why can't she just close this? Why string me along?

Sometimes I think about dating OW, but I know it's wrong, I don't know maybe I just want to feel wanted again?

That's all I'm just venting for now. Have to exercise more to get some of the good chemicals back in the system.

On a positive note, it was great to see my kids enjoyed Easter egg hunt yesterday especially s3.

Newman

me40; W43
M18; T~20
D18; S13 & S3
bomb 5/9/11
EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM

Separated 4/1/14

"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.