Running out of Steam - Pt 2

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I thought I would start part 2 of Running Out Of Steam as this feels more relevant as a title than my thread about Limbo Land.

Here is that thread for you to catch up:

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2333524#Post2333524

I thought by all accounts I was doing well, and by myself and W getting on so well i could have been making progress. I also felt like i was managing to GAL, working on my 180's, and my changes.

Now I am not so sure. W has been constant with her talk of future, to the point of being one step away of writing lists of what we both will take with us.

I think the problem I am facing is that the better we get on, the more relaxed I become, which lets us get on better. However, the more relaxed I become the more I forget about how big a deal this is, and what has been said and done over the last weeks. Its almost like I am living in my own fantasy world now where everything is perfect. At which point I lapse on progress with my 180's etc.

My wife is still 100% certain that this is what she wants and needs. Its beginning to drive me a little crazy now, and I am not sure how much more I can listen to W's comments about our lack of future together. This mixed with W looking better than she has done for years, and showing me clothes she now fits in that she has not managed to fit in since we met. Its all becoming very difficult.

I'm sorry if this thread is starting as a rant and a vent. But this weekend has been at times fun, happy and as a family pretty perfect. But at the same time its been upsetting and frustrating.

I am trying to detach and was doing well, but I keep getting pulled back in by W, and the fun we are having together.