happy easter back! you're rite of course (how often i say this) but it's mighty nice to hear yet again and get the reinforcement.
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You say things like ow is soo much better than you, stop, even if ow was the queen of Sheba, never put her in front of you. Stop assuming what H is thinking and doing. Stop thinking that his choice are a reflection on you as a person! You have to depersonalize his sitch, it's his sitch, it's not about you!!!!,
i hear what you're saying. i personally think she's a total pos- but then, am forced to (i hear your voice - saying DON'T DO IT) (OR I THNK FORCED) to consider what HE must be thinking. i know- i shouldn't do it to me- i don't AS MUCH - but i still do.
i am still amazed he could toss off me for her- what a bum deal. what crap taste and so on.000'
i'm not going there today- (fingers crossed).
h is pretty neurtral and "pleasant" all in all. when he's actually nice- i thnk it's because he just "chatted" with her. it's only hurting me- i know it- you're totally correct- i'm still workin on that. i know it's about him- but then THE REJECTION is not an easy thing for me to swallow. i want better - i want more- i deserve more- YET I CAN'T SAY IT- SHOW IT- DEMAND IT, ETC.
well of course i can, but i'm afraid mwd is rite- it would just end it all bingo bongo.
ANYWAY- back to not doing this today. he's playing tennis at moment- scallop potatos cooking- i was just in yard decorating a flowerpot in front of house to look springie - we get alot of traffic- feel like it's my duty to decorate or at least make the effort - for my "fans". silly huh? but sometimes in traffic people stop and comment and complime3nt the grden (usually a mess i think- so good to hear positive feedback) and so that.
it's a nice day- my sister is cooking and someone else went to church with mom.
all's right with the world (well, almost - but i'll take it)
anyway- i'm glad to hear you're planning to have a nice day and overeat- my personal answer (well, one of them) to intense stress.
YOU'RE RITE also by the way- about us being "free" women. i would like to have a loving companion as i used to- i don't know or can't see who that could possibly be. i think i may not be "there" yet- but then, the minute someone would ever present themselves and be that- i'd be more than ready.
I am open to the universe and whatever presents itself that is positive, fun and for me. yay -
i'd better go rake a bit and finish decorating that pot- just wanted to take this private moment to check in and say hello- and thanks for note. sometimes i get lonely alot- you can tell im sure frm my rants and my constant participation in this forum. oh well- whtever it takes to get us thru the day huh?
monday- maybe my substitute junk is finally alllll done- well, one little course, will find out monday when it could be- who knows, maybe they'll have something and i'll get very busy and forget allll about him, that life, etc.
fingers crossed- it's easter rite???? time of new beginnings?
