"I do not want to be divorced. I want my H to figure it out and come back to us."

That is a notion you need to get rid of. You can't control him and need to detach.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER