Mana, Mana! Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo! Part 2

[Tallula]

You are all right. I have no intention of doing anything rash. Thank god for DB, because it's almost instinctive for me to give take info now and absorb, not react.

I called my best friend this morning. She pretty much nailed it on the head. Also, i had posted in my last thread yesterday how i am sure that OW has helped me not fully process his compulsive chrating. But she eas like, This is so unbelievable. You just can't fathom that this is really happening. That he is actively pursuing 3 woman. So, here I sit.

D2 is a mess. She has been for awhile, but H hasn't really seen it. So this morning she was sobbing for me and he just kept saying "she is sick." I went to comfort her & he said that I should probably just let her cry. I told him I had been reading up on kids dealing with divorce and they just need extra comfort. He goes "we aren't going through a divorce!" I said, "you don't live here anymore. That effects our children. Same literature will help.". In my head I thought, yeah you are. You just don't know it yet.

I am bracing myself for some ugly. I really don't believe he ever thinks I'll leave. And today, I know I will never stay. I want to continue to walk through this as friendly & civilly as I can. I just got off the phone with my moms friend who is a real estate agent. She is coming by next week to see what we will need to do to get the house ready to sell. And what's better, she is waving her fees. Her H was a serial cheater too.

Putting one foot infront of the other. Here I go!