Bklyn With Love

[BklynMom]

No reponse yet and I dont think he will send one this weekend. He is with the girls at his parents house for easter.

I want his approval because I want him to love me because I don't love myself.

Wow that was very cathartic writing that I dont love myself. But you know what I am getting there.

All the steps I have taken through this program, have made me more comfortable with myself. I definitely have been doing better networking at work and just have been a million times more comfortable in my own skin.

My h lack of response is so predictable. He gets so angry if things are not planned his way but he has no idea how to deal with it, it all stays bottled up inside.

Last night when I called to talk to the girls and he was at his parents house. He was joking with them "no girls you can have milk or water, you can't have daddys beer"

I know I am reading too much into it but he know I think he has a drinking problem why does he mention alcohol. He has made these jokes before. It's really not funny any more