Guys, thank you for your support. I need a hug--wish you were all here.
Today was really stressful.
I pulled into the parking lot and my H was there, so we walked together to the building. He noticed my cool outfit and asked if I was dressed like Pink. He was blatantly checking me out, which I didn't mind. I said he looked good (got rid of his long hair and shaved a beard he had grown since he started seeing the new "GF".)He said he had a bad feeling about the meeting. I said to push away the negative thoughts.
So we went in the office.
The mediator actually made things worse, I think. I felt as though my H had hired/swayed her, but I found her, so that can't be. I felt attacked. We came up with something that was pretty much the same as what we had before with maybe a slight improvement. I don't feel good about the outcome but I'm sick of this so I'll say yes. However, the mediator emailed her write up and had some errors and something I didn't agree to, so it seems my H and I will have to talk about this again. UGH!!!!!!!
I was nice today and brought him a couple of my specialty brownies for Easter. He was thankful and asked if he could call my mom on her b-day tomorrow. I said she would like that. We said goodbye in the parking lot with an awkward hug.
Cried a while during the drive to work. I'm not in the happiest of moods now either :-(
It's just really overwhelming. And it's not like we even finished everything today. We have to talk again.
I told my L the outcome and he said we should go to Special Masters. I will say no to that.
Thank you again, guys. It felt so good to read your messages when I got back. You're the best.
