I would work on your self-confidence. I was bullied a lot in grade school and middle school, too. I don't dwell on it like a lot of people, but I think it made me pretty awkward in high school and maybe college.
My biggest boon to self-confidence was going to the gym. I was always pretty pudgy and after six months at the gym, I was in the best shape of my life. That made me feel great. Then I started dressing better, and that's really all it took for me.
I'm sure others will be along to recommend some books. I see Dale Carnegie's How to Win Friends and Influence People recommended a lot, but never read it myself.
Thanks! I've listened to most of the audio book of How to Win Friends..In the Digital Age. It's good stuff. Perhaps I need to give it another listen.
On another note, while thinking inward further, I realize that I've ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS placed the majority of my value on being in a relationship. I've never been happy on my own. This needs to change. But how?
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done