Hi turtlegirl. I just glanced back at the first post in your previous thread, and it's quite obvious that you are in a much better place today than you were back then. I know dealing with all this isn't easy, but it is essential that we continue to grow and become better, and yes, even happier people. Keep it up girl!

Originally Posted By: littleGTO

H's only sister was recently diagnosed w breast cancer & is now receiving chemo. H's dad recently had brain surgery to remove a non-cancerous tumor. And, H's aunt (his M's sister) was diagnosed within days of his sister with lymphoma.


How are they doing? I hope you are still there for them, because that's what family is for. They are, and always will be part of your family. Continue to show them love and support.

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I have been DBing before H even told me about OW & H has taken notice. BUT, he has only taken steps away from me and our family. None toward. It appears as though he's just taking his own sweet time to make any decisions, although I really don't know why.


Could be he's just not sure of what he wants. Bailing on 21 years together is just not that easy of a decision to make. I'd say this is a good reflection on you, and your DB efforts.

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Letting go. The topic of my thread is NOT about giving up or dropping the rope (yet). Although I truly do not believe my situation seems to be very hopeful, I want to believe in miracles. It is, instead, about letting go of any misbelief of my control of anything except myself. And, moving forward with my life with or without H.


This is great! Continue with this mindset and you and your life will be golden.

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He's "in love" w OW and he's "not willing to let his feelings change."


Never mind that. Feelings change, and they can change again. Focus on the positive, and stay on course.

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I have taken inventory of my H's complaints and done several positive 180s (some of which come naturally to me now). I am working on the GAL portion of DBing,


Keep this up, for YOU.

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This place is my refuge and has been for months.


Agreed! Not sure where I'd be without this board. Bust On!

M: A really long time.
Crisis: 5 years.
She's still worth it.

Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl